Monday, September 28, 2015

Home for good

I will be arriving Kuala Lumpur in next few days.

I was so busy with travelling. Approximately one month and a half. Travelled with friends, travelled with family and again, with other friends. Despite draining of energy, I feel accomplished. I don't have a clear definition of accomplishment but I guess at this age, I just graduated with my Master in Architecture which was tough and brain-wracking. Gave my best to study (after few piles of air mata, haaahaa), gave my best to seeing the world in travelling which I like the most when studying here. That, is now enough. I am ready for the next phase to come, in career or settling down with a partner *which is so unlikely.haha.. that one, is as blurry as current haze in Malaysia*

At this moment, I just don't know how to feel. Am I making the right decision to leave England when Malaysia itself is not that promising? will I ever come back to England? I am well aware I will miss England as most of my friends who studied here do. But what best to do now is to redha, tawakal and move on. Who knows what lies ahead. Might be good and better for me?

Haven't I made my istikharah continuously whether to stay or to leave? Don't I feel numb if I stay when all my love ones are in Malaysia? Maybe I wouldn't bother that much if my family members are here. 

Today is 28th of September. I just came back from London to Birmingham last night after an all-girl Europe trip with my sister and school friends for nearly 2 weeks. I rarely update my instagram or facebook anymore. I find that focusing with real life feels more meaningful and REAL.

Here I am sitting on my bed feeling so lazy to pack up my stuff. And I only have tomorrow the whole day to buy whatever left to be bought for family and friends. I am restless. I can imagine me being cranky if I were a kid. 

But oh well, let's start before I roll on my bed and kicking all pillows off the bed. 

Sharing a picture of my graduation last 4th of September.

16 comments:

  1. Congrats for your convocation and welcome back to Malaysia (in advance)! Have a safe journey back home, insyaAllah! ;)

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  2. Congratulations on your graduation! I've been reading your posts so long and it inspired me a lot :)
    Keep on writing and thank you :)

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  3. To stay or not to stay bukannya satu keputusan yg kau perlu buat segera, Sophie.
    Balik Malaysia dulu, lepas rindu mana patut
    then baru decide balik what should you do.
    Just plan for the best je, n kalau boleh jangan banyak sangat tanya pendapat orang lain, takut2 nanti hati berbolak-balik. Hehehe

    Alas, welcome home.

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    1. ye, betul juga apa kau cakap tu. Thanks cero. Aku pun rasa paling tak pun aku patut bina kerjaya dulu di tanah air.

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  4. congrats darling!ingat ML x? :)
    .I feel u..memang rasa berat actually..tapi bile fikir keadaan malaysia yang mcm xselamat kat bawah PM sekarang ni, memang xboleh lari dari rasa nak migrate. ML pon skrg tgh fikir nak ambik exam utk migrate kerja kat oversea. tapi ya Allah..malasnye lah nak study..hahaha . Apepun, welcome home..

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  5. waaa congrats! dah grad dah.. rasa macam baru haritu baca entri sumbung study di uk.. (which is dah bertahun tahun lepas) apapun, tahniah dan selamat berkhidmat di tanah air

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  6. congrats to u, sophie....

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  7. just ikut pengalaman saya, serius dulu masa buat medic kt UK pun rasa mcm nak mati because really miss my family and the surrounding.Then bila dh graduate , saya pun tak tau nk sambung practical di mana memandangkan saya ada tajaan universiti utk sambung utk bust housemanship and i want to suggest you utk cari dulu pengalaman bekerja di overseas for a few years then baru balik Malaysia. And what Saya dpt habiskan housemanship saya di UK for 2 years and alhamdulillah, Allah permudahkan saya utk applykan apa yg saya dpt time housemanship dulu di hospital KL and now saya dh jadi dr di wad paediatrik.

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